This little friend in my garden yesterday without a tail inspired me to this writing .
What means "healing" and also to be "healer"? I have often asked myself this question in the past few weeks and months.
I am trying to share my current answer to the question from both perspectives with humbleness and from my current understanding.
Clients come to me and ask to be finally at peace with themselves and the world around them from their pain, their fear, their anger. no more pain in the broken heart, to feel that the sleepless nights, restlessness, fainting, despair or anger provoke from them.
For example, how can you find abundance on the outside if you still don't feel worth enough in your deepest inner self? How can you call the partner of your life into your life if you still don't feel, accept and love yourself enough?
Yes, as a shamanistic practitioner and thus my connection with the spiritual world, it is possible for me to release your blockages, send positive energies, balance energy centers and even recover lost soul parts for you, but is that the solution? Meanwhile, I see it similar to a glass of wine, a bliss experience during meditation or in the experience with a medicine plant (i.e. Ayahuasca) that generally only brings temporary "healing".
But I know - and I speak here from my own experience - that this feeling does not last long. At some point, maybe very soon, fear, anger, despair will come up again.
And here is the point: nobody can take away these feelings and the resulting negative thoughts and (re)actions for you, release them from you. They are YOUR little children who want to be heard, felt and hugged by YOU and at the very moment when they call you, when you feel them. Our society, and I also involve many spiritual masters, promise happiness, contentment, abundance, inner peace. But these are results that tear us away from the here and now and what life is trying to show you and on the other hand it is purely result-oriented. How about FINALLY accepting all of our imperfection within us instead of pushing it further away from us, not wanting to heal and transform it, but looking at it as something sacred and accepting it in all of its present existence?
I've tried an incredible amount of healing ways in my life to “heal myself”, but I've never given myself the opportunity to actually feel all the pain, anger, and dis-empowerment in all its facets, to give it all the necessary space that it actually longs for - and also as long as necessary. Whether meditation, mantras, plant medicine, affirmations, energy work etc. at some point I was back to zero.
Now I realize, thanks to my inner process and thus also the quarantine and all the medicine that it brought and still brings, that the search for the so-called healing is a repressing and accepting of our small children. A lost job, a broken heart, the loss of a person or an animal, etc. - all of these events are powerful medicine that you consciously need to live and embrace as long as it is necessary. A seed in the darkness of Mother Earth also doesn't know when its sprouts will sprout, it simply accepts what it is and where it is,
I do not want to reject the healing methods mentioned above, they can complement and support, but will not heal in the long term.
I know that all of this brings up additional fear, despair and feelings of loneliness, but maybe everything that is happening to you right now is a master plan of your soul that knows exactly what is happening and why. We have learned to be masters in distracting from negative feelings, whether through work, alcohol, sex, drugs, friends and so much more.
I would like to offer you to accompany and support you on your way and to listen and feel where your little child is calling the loudest. I accompany you in a sensitive way thanks to my intuitive connection with your spiritual companions, who can open the doors for you to accept what needs to be accepted and brought to consciousness.
Working with your guide team is process-oriented. I compare it with the following (without wanting to criticize anyone): a tarot card can tell you that you will split up from your partner in a few months (results-oriented), your spiritual guides will pick you up where you are and accompany you in the development and growth of your soul and what it needs right now. The result is open.
Have a blessed day with all its ups and downs that want to be embraced today.